Sorry about the non-posting. The non-computer and the crazy job has kept me from doing so. I hope to be getting a PC at some point in the near future, but I'm catching up on some major bill boo-boos.So, you're thinking that I'm held up in some basement below a crazy man about to be hooked me up to a murder machine? Well, that's true and it isn't.... at least not literally.
I've found myself in the world of See-No-Evil (etc). It's a place that feels suspiciously like some corporate version of 1984. You can't just act the way they want you to act, dress the way they want you to dress, speak the way they want you to speak, but you must also think how they want you to think. Except for the fact that our main example of professionalism is the least professional person I have ever met. If I delved into that, you're jaw would drop to the floor.
The Dystopian concept of Double Think is all around me. If you aren't familiar with the it, I Wikipedia-ed it for you:
Applied to an opponent, it means the habit of impudently claiming that black is white, in contradiction of the plain facts. Applied to a Party member, it means a loyal willingness to say that black is white when Party discipline demands this. But it means also the ability to believe that black is white, and more, to know that black is white, and to forget that one has ever believed the contrary.
There is a constant contradiction of words and actions. Sometimes it's difficult to say "Well... this is amazing money and stellar benefits, so I'll just eat this crazy medicine with a spoon full of sugar."
But, I try, none the less, and it seems like I'm actually doing okay, considering that the class is failing all around me. If I can get through this class, maybe the company will be different. Maybe they're putting us through all of this to try to break us, so that they're sure we can handle the job... Like mental boot camp. I'm just not sure that I like the process, or the processees, if you will.
Alas, I'm not doing terribly, and it's the main point that draws out my Optimism. The main thought is 'No News Is Good News' and it's what I've been ultimately working with. I haven't been given any spacific criticisms, had no grave meetings with outside bosses, and haven't seen any real discipline that wasn't dished out to the whole class. I'm trying not to lose myself too much in the process... wish me luck...
