I don't understand the best, And cannot speak for all the rest.

I have come to some conclusions and one decision this week.

CONCLUSION #1

In all of my relationships, whether complicated or simple, I come in as second best to the selfish person on the other side.

My friends seem to have someone more important to hang out with and never give in balance to what they take. At work, all but one person will talk to me only if nobody else is around. In one impossible relationship, I find out that he’d been cheating on me the entire time that he had ployed me into bed with him. In one possibly impossible relationship, he throws me scraps only to snatch them away a moment later.

Even if the sacrifice seems high, I cannot be involved in relationships that are not balanced. I feel that these “friendships” (etc) exist because I have allowed them.

CONCLUSION #2

Such unnamed folks are holding me back from finding love and success.

If I can cut all ties from the selfish creeps that have pushed me past my limit, maybe I can have more meaningful relationships. I can have friends that treat me like an equal. Maybe I can have lovers that love me for all that I am, and not what they want me to be.

DECISION

I’m not going to allow these negative people into my life anymore. They don’t deserve me, and as long as I keep that in mind, I can have goals and move toward them. I won’t feel like the label of “friend” (or otherwise) is a fake one.

I’m going to pounce on all positive opportunities, and pull the weeds out of my life by the root.

This sounds like the beginning of a theme song & if I was any good as a song writer, it would be on a sitcom right now.